Barbiecide

I started my blog only to take a break from it. Why? Well around 6 months ago I met my beautiful other half Ritsu in Secondlife in a sim called Femboys. He was always stood there and throughout the year I'd always compliment his avatars.  However there was never a chance before because either me or him were in a relationship one time... but that window opened and I finally had the guts to talk to him and ask if he'd Roleplay with me sometimes. Not sexual roleplay but story driven and he agreed. 6 months later and he is visiting me for the first time and I cannot wait for the love of my life to finally come to me.  Our connection in SL is so powerful, so loving and caring. I hope it translate to RL too because I want to spend the rest of my life with this man. Anyway- I'm leaving and will blog sporadically!  Picture of my beautiful Husbands character Leto Lots of Love, Jasper Abe

 Several years ago I wrote this poem to help cope with the chronic pain I suffer with. It's something that has been developing into a worse more painful state over the years and my thoughts about my pain started becoming more haunting with each passing day I find it harder to suppress these thoughts but through writing I've been able to pull them little by little and splay them on to digital paper. This poem won a contest many years ago. If you relate like others did please feel to reach out, I'd be happy to chat to others suffering from chronic pain. In the day - Pale light descends on my unable body A tear, a well known adversary,  journeys down my cheek And the mantra, a foe, arises on the new dawn in the forefront of my mind "Cut your legs off and the pain will vanish." The Mantra Proclaims  The tear which traversed my cheek to greet my neck, drips in agreement  Tomorrow the sounds of the birds will appear, pale light with descend  And the adversary will jou...

For those that don't know the word polyamory combines the Greek word for "many" (poly) and the Latin word for "love" (amor). Are we time travelling back to the days of the Greek gods when before marriage it was grapes, fab wine and fucking around rather than settling down?  It seems not only is poly relationships thriving IRL but also in Secondlife. Last year I found myself in a poly relationship through Secondlife and personally it was one of the worst mistakes of my life. It was something that felt forced onto me and I didn't know how to get out of it without losing my other half. Eventually my mental health tanked and when I reached the bottom of the well I called it quits. It wasn't for me but it was something I wanted to try for the sake of my partner and their wants without actually considering my own.  Albeit I've heard people say it is something that has enriched their lives, helped with their emotional intelligence and communication skills. ...

 Does anyone recall when they were a young adult and you had friends, sometimes best friends? Maybe from school or your neighborhood. You all made the promise to be friends forever- be there for one another during the fun but also tough times... but overtime you all became amble- fell into your own individual selves. It happens. As a kid (and even now as an older adult) I found it difficult to have friends. I was always the person bouncing between the different groups such as the emo's to the stoners to the chavs but I never settled into one group. However on my first day of high school I met one friend, who we will go by N for now. We met on the first day of high school and over the years became the best of friends. She was the one who introduced me to Secondlife. I got a call one day saying she had seen an article in a magazine about SL and had been playing it non stop for a few days! Well as someone who suffers from FOMO- I just had to sign up. 15 years later and I'm still a...

 We all sit on Secondlife for one reason or another- whether it's that you have a disability and this is your outlet to do what you can't IRL- or need a break from the stress around you and build tanks because it's something that's way cheaper to do in SL than RL.  There are so many reasons for us to be here. My reason? I work from home and find that, admittedly, yes I am someone who is chronically online and I use SL as an artistic outlet and a way to connect with people online. As someone who has Autism, I find it rather difficult to make friends and maintain them IRL- so it's just easier this way and better for my mental health.  However there are people who like to use SL "wrong" , lets say, those who use it to troll or abuse others. A hot topic amongst people is "targeted abuse" and how easy it is for people to do.  I've found myself recently someone who has been on the targeted end of abuse from some stranger who, for some reason, allo...